The Sickness of Being Calculating — The Hidden Struggle of Overthinking in Our Minds

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This English version was translated from the Japanese original with the assistance of ChatGPT. Original Japanese version

This article is based on the Buddhist scripture Zāḥāgama Sutra, Volume 8-227.

In everyday life, we often find ourselves overthinking — planning, organizing, or calculating — until our minds spin in circles. In the Saṃyukta Āgama, the Buddha shows how such thought patterns cause troubles, offering a chance to reflect on the habit of being calculating.

The “Calculating” Disease — The Hidden Struggle of Our Minds

Buddha
Buddha

Being calculating…
This is a kind of mental sickness.

Disciple2
Disciple2

But there are many ways of being calculating—counting, measuring, planning… Can all of these really be called a kind of sickness?

Disciple1
Disciple1

I don’t think any of those are necessarily bad…

Disciple1
Disciple1

Ah, but I guess overthinking isn’t good either.
For example, when making a plan, we consider all sorts of possibilities, and in the end, we sometimes end up doing nothing at all. That happens, right?

Disciple2
Disciple2

But managing risks is important too.
I agree that overthinking or relying only on theoretical ideas isn’t good, but just winging it can be dangerous as well, right

Buddha
Buddha

Being calculating is indeed a kind of sickness.
I’m not saying it’s bad in itself. But for us, this sickness represents an unavoidable kind of suffering.

Overthinking can give us headaches.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Hmm… if you ignore a sickness, it will get worse, right? That can’t be good, can it?

Disciple2
Disciple2

If you understand it and deal with it properly, it can improve.
It’s like observing and then treating it.

Disciple1
Disciple1

I see.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Also, understanding a sickness helps you maintain your health—or, in other words, stay in a good state.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Ah, so it’s about prevention.
Jumping to the conclusion that “sickness = bad” would be too quick.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Right. Now, getting back to the main point: we need to think carefully about what it means when being calculating is a kind of sickness.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Counting, measuring, planning… Those kinds of thinking are essential for living, but we need to be careful not to let them get out of hand, right?

The Meaning of Planning and Scheming

Disciple2
Disciple2

For example, take “planning ahead.”

Disciple1
Disciple1

Planning ahead… you mean like scheming? That sounds a bit negative to me.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Not necessarily. Planning that helps both yourself and others isn’t bad at all.

Disciple1
Disciple1

I see… but if the plan only benefits yourself, it can give a very bad impression.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Exactly. And if you always think only about what’s good for you, that kind of mindset can even affect your relationships with others.

The Calculating Mind that Breeds Conflict and Doubt

Disciple2
Disciple2

Buddha, is having that kind of mindset what you call a sickness?

Buddha
Buddha

How about we have some tea?

By the way, I received some delicious sweets. Please join me.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Oh, thank you! I do love sweets.

Buddha
Buddha

I see. I’ll cut them for you now.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Thank you very much.

I’ll take this piece, then.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Wait a moment— isn’t that piece bigger?

Disciple2
Disciple2

Do you want the bigger one?

It looks like it’s packed with more filling.

Also, I prefer the edge piece.

Disciple1
Disciple1

The edge? Right, you do like that.

I think I’ll go for the one with more filling.

Buddha
Buddha

Don’t fight over it, okay?(laughing)

By the way, if this had turned into a real argument, what would you have done?

Disciple 1

Disciple1
Disciple1

Hmm… I guess if not dividing it fairly would cause complaints, I’d try to split it evenly—like by size, maybe?

Disciple2
Disciple2

Then you’d really need to measure it, down to the centimeters.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Right… (laughing)

Buddha
Buddha

Just the size?

Disciple2
Disciple2

Well, if you care about the filling, you’d have to weigh it in grams.

Buddha
Buddha

And what about the edges you mentioned?

Disciple1
Disciple1

Why do you like the edge, anyway?

Disciple2
Disciple2

I think it’s the texture.

Disciple1
Disciple1

So firmness? Because of the bite?

Disciple2
Disciple2

Hmm… maybe.

Well, if you wanted, even firmness or softness could be measured.

Buddha
Buddha

Yes, there are even units for firmness, though we don’t usually use them for food.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Really?

You could also measure sweetness, ingredients, and other things.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Setting rules in advance to avoid arguments is also a kind of planning, isn’t it?

Disciple1
Disciple1

We said we’d divide it evenly, but if we think about all angles too precisely, it gets endlessly complicated… and gives me a headache.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Also, one-third is actually 1 ÷ 3 = 0.333…, so it can’t be perfectly divided anyway.

Disciple1
Disciple1

True… (laughing)

Disciple2
Disciple2

Being calculating is convenient and essential, but it can definitely give us headaches.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Even with the sweets, if we don’t overthink, we can divide them fairly evenly.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Right, and being calculating can become addictive. It’s an endless cycle if we get too caught up in it.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Buddha, I think I understand why being calculating is considered a sickness.
So, what should we do about it?

Shifting Perspective

Buddha
Buddha

Avoid thinking in terms of “me” or “what belongs to me.”

Disciple2
Disciple2

So in the sweets example, does that mean we shouldn’t say, “This is mine,” or “I want this one”?

Disciple1
Disciple1

Then should we just give everything away?

Buddha
Buddha

Don’t take my words as fixed rules.
That kind of rigid interpretation is itself a form of calculating.

Disciple1
Disciple1

…?

Disciple2
Disciple2

We weren’t actually fighting.
And we naturally shared based on what each of us preferred.

Disciple1
Disciple1

So this isn’t about erasing the self and giving everything to others?

Disciple2
Disciple2

Right. You often say that terms like “no-self” shouldn’t be taken literally.

Disciple1
Disciple1

Wow… this is getting complicated.

Disciple2
Disciple2

That’s how calculating works.
What starts as an attempt to clarify things often ends up making them more complicated.

 

Disciple1
Disciple1

So we’re not being told to abandon ourselves and give everything away.

Disciple2
Disciple2

Exactly.
Thinking “I must give up myself for others” already comes from measuring “self” and “possessions.”

Buddha
Buddha

When that kind of measuring stops,
the sense of clinging to what you think you hold naturally falls away.

Disciple2
Disciple2

…?

Disciple1
Disciple1

So have we been overthinking all along?

Disciple2
Disciple2

Did we do something wrong?

Buddha
Buddha

No, not at all.
By the way, how were the sweets? Would you like some more tea?

Disciple1
Disciple1

Thank you.

Disciple2
Disciple2

This tea is delicious too.

Buddha
Buddha

I’m glad we could talk like this—
learning from one another while sharing tea and sweets.

Disciple2
Disciple2

That’s a bit much…

Disciple1
Disciple1

Now you’re making me blush. (laughing)

Buddha
Buddha

Sometimes discussions turn into harsh arguments.
Even tea and sweets can become causes of conflict—
who gets more, who gets less, what belongs to whom.

Buddha
Buddha

That kind of measuring can easily become the spark of conflict.

Disciple1
Disciple1

That’s true…

Disciple2
Disciple2

Wait—does that also come from “calculating”?

Buddha smiles warmly, and the room falls quiet for a moment.

A brief note on translation

The Japanese verb hakaru (計る) carries a range of meanings—measuring, calculating, weighing, and assessing—that naturally overlap.
In this text, that sense of overlap is reflected in the phrase being calculating.
It is not intended as a strict equivalent, but as a way of holding those nuances together within a single expression.

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